Mr. Right or Mr. Right Now ??

So if you've been keeping up with me i told you about a man that i have been dating.....the older light bright gentlemen...let me update you. After many dates, many nights out around the town, coffee breaks, shopping, many dinners and cheesecakes. lol. After many late night talks on the phone,watching the games together, playing the game together, exercising together, going to church together, spooning and walks around the campus..and much more. I think this may just be the one. Meaning I think this just may be the one I settle down with, buy a home with, marry and all that... I don't want to jump the broom just yet. Yall know I'm a sucker for love and I fall quickly but I'm really taking my time and taking this slowly. Him being older he doesn't want to wait on nothing, very straight forward, and knows what he wants. He's already into his career and plans on retiring from what he's doing. All that's left to complete Mister is a Misses...

We are about 5 months into dating and we are having talks about moving in together in July. I'm all about time and I think its to soon, I was thinking after a year then we could move in. But when you love someone and your in love you want to be able to be with them everyday. I think the long distance relationship failed me the 1st time, we had to much space between one another which gave me and him open opportunity to run stray. and I don't want distance to be between us. So i figured lets move in...if all else fails then I'll just move back home ...no biggie. Life is short and I know in my heart without a doubt that this is a good look. Everything that I do and the moves I make really have to be thought out  because I'm a pair and I'm not alone so everything that I do will affect little muffin as well. 

. Everything seems to check out. 

I'm in a relationship were I don't have no doubts. I know its only been 5 months but he makes me sure of us. Which is something that I never had before.I feel like we are a team. We share common goals and we want to achieve them TOGETHER....its not on no help me come up and I might put you on type of shit...He goes just as hard as I do when it comes to makin us work and I love it. 

Everyday I have faith and I continue to pray that our relationship only gets better and we grow together has a couple, as a family. So wish me luck!!! 

 
 

Finally Closed That Chapter

This morning I was reading past blogs that I posted back in 2011. Wow I was really pressed lls...I look back at those times and the things that I wrote and I realized how lost and troubled I was then. To think that I was deserving of being mistreated for years. Reading past blogs I sounded obsessed and broken down, under his control. I'm here to tell you in 2013 I'm definitely singing a different tune.

 Riding my own waves, It took me a good year almost to realize that enough was enough and I needed to move forward, the drama and stress was becoming bad for my health and I was really falling off. Honestly enough was enough when my 4 year old could see the pain in my eyes and sense how I was feeling and she knew that daddy was the reason. I didn't want her to see that anymore and I didn't want me to feel that way anymore. I wanted out, and I got out. It wasn't like I was being held against my will or anything of that nature, I was holding on to someone that wanted to be let free. It was like caging a sliver back that belonged out in the wild. And once I let him free I let me free as well. And I've never felt better.