Tuesday, August 9, 2011

A Black Women's CursE

I wish he knew what his infidelity did to me, if he could see my soul
deteriorate
When I know what he did the night before
I can almost taste her when he walks through the door.
What does she have that I am lacking, he doesn't look at me the same,
I am inclined to wonder if it is me that forces him to cheat,
I keep my hair done, feet, nails, clothes nice,
He never wants for anything while he is with me
i maintain the house, clothes are clean, ironed.
He gets breakfast, dinner, he never wants dessert anymore,
i cater to his every need and still this man has the desire
for another woman's touch. Why can't I be enough?
he tells me he loves me and that I am insecure
but I wasn't before I was with him
so he has made me this way
but even worst I have allowed him too
curse of the black woman
I just need his warmth
I loved him from day one
I love him hard too
There isn't anything that I wouldn't do
If I could just get him to see me the way he used to
The gleam is gone from his eye
The love he had for me is slowly dying
Oh how I want to revive it
But how? I haven't left anything in me
I gave every particle to him
He still possesses the best of me
Just some of the thoughts
A woman thinks
When a man cheats

He asked and I answered...

Sometimes at night I be on yahoo questions and answers. Its where yahoo members all over the globe can ask questions and anyone can comment- give there 2 sense. So this question stood out tonight and made me feel good about myself and being inlove...had to share it with someone. Feel fee to comment or answer in your own opinion...

This is what the question was...
How would you know you have fallen in love with the right person..?
Is there a right or wrong person in love...? If flaws make us imperfect and if imperfections mean somehat "wrong", then every person we fall in love with is wrong for no one is really perfect... If someone help us grow, would it mean that she/he is already the "right" person to love...? Acceptance, what about it...? So what if the person you love burps loud in public or farts terribly, would you stop loving that person because of those 'humiliating" flaws...? We say everyone is unique, why can't we sometimes accept that uniqueness and we always want the idea of a "right" person to love...? Is there a boundary for loving a person..? Ugliness, is that the boundary..? Sexiness, is that the boundary..? How would you know if you have fallen in love with the "right" person...?

This is someones answer i love what he said....

When you stop noticing all those flaws, and only notice how great person she is. when your able to see her the ways other people do, " dude how can u love her, shes so ugly" beauty is in the eyes of the viewer, same for sexiness, and all that, and "farting" hehe, Better out than in, said the doctor. :)

When you feel your completely yourself, no pretending, no attempts to be some1 else around her, then u love her truly, but you never know what her feelings might be about you, :(

In my eyes, Love is a lie, love is a means to escape the fear of eternal solitude, something i am not afraid of. i rather spend my life alone, than play with peoples hearts, tryin to find the one, Granny once said, The right one finds you. :)
Source(s):
Real life!


And this is my answer....

aww...i love this question. I say you'll never know if there the right person. But the heart never lies and love is strong. the feeling you have for someone is undeniable and unconditional. We might be two completely different people but somehow we click some how he's what keeps me sane.He balances me... Like ying and yang...to me when your in love with someone your in love with everything that person is and will be. you accept there flaws and you make them better. When your in love your comfortable to the point where you cant be humiliated or embarrassed by this person. There are NO boundaries. I say love till you can't until you absolutely know in your soul and heart that's there nothing else to feed off of...then that's when its over officially . That person is your best friend you can tell them anything, do anything, you wont be judged by them, you can be sexy, and angry, and sad and show all these different sides because that person is that other half and they accept you as well....when you can feel all these feelings then to me that's the right person and deep inside you will know and you wont have to question it.
Source(s):
My source is experience.


so how u feel...

Jump Up 2 Get Beat Down!

You given me opportunity to leave....over and over again...
You have fucked me up mentally

I've allowed this so called relationship to last for years. I've gotten used to the name calling, the arguments, the good times and bad.
Gotten used to it to the point where I looked forward to it....
it kept me coming to see you over and over again....if we didn't have anything we had that much goin on and that was ok with me...
Becoming immune to the disrespect...

I don't know what its like to be loved now, to feel appreciated, to be whined and dined, to be looked out for, i don't know what it feels like to have someone love me unconditionally....and if that special someone comes my way I wouldn't even know what to do with him. Wouldn't know where to start...

always been told I'm not tall enough
not small enough, my hair not long enough
my cooking not good enough, my cleaning my green enough....

been call everything but the child of god..but still i go back

I pray every time I see you it will be different. This will be the weekend we fall in love all over again....this will be the moment where we make future plans and be committed. But the longer I stay the worst it gets...

I've given you too much power. Too much control over me and this so called relationship.
I've let you do whatever you want with me and still have your cake and eat it too

I spoiled you like a child...
I kept your belly full,
clothed you,
bathed you as if you were one of my own.
I was your chef,
your friend,
your nail technician,
your ikea lol,
your freak,
your lie,
your truth,
your 2nd best,
your custodian..i mean ive played all the roles just for you....

I think this all stops today. Us....me and you..you and me it stops today......

When the heart cant take any more some women will stay.....but this woman is leaving. Deuces!

Favorite Jay Z Quotes

I know the way a nigga livin was whack.But u dn't get a nigga back like that! Shit I'm a man w/ pride, u dn't do shit like that u dn't just pick up &leave me sick like that u dn't throw away what we had, just like that I was just fuckin them girls, I was gon' get right back They say u can't turn a bad girl good But once a good girl's goin bad, she's gone forever..I'll mourn forever..Shit I gotta live with the fact I did you wrong forever-  (Song Cry)

You rappers singing too much, get back to rap you t-paining too much.I’m a multi-millionaire so how is it I’m still the hardest here,I don’t be in the project hallway talking about how I be in the project all day That sound stupid to me, if you a gangsta this is how you prove it to me.Yeah just get violent, this Death of auto-tune moment of silence.(Death of Auto-tune)

I move forward the only direction cant be scared to fail Search and perfection Gotta keep it fresh even when we sexing but don’t be mad at him when he’s on to the next one (On To The Next One)


If you havin girl problems i feel bad for you son I got 99 problems but a bitch ain't one (99 Problems)

We always hook up when we out We do what we like to do and then we out But lately I've been havin the strangest feelings Your boy Young Hov' catchin feelings and it's messin up my dealings cause mami's not willin to leave her boyfriend, she call me her toy-friend Said, "We was just 'sposed to hook up and have a glass" She called me her emergency dick-in-the-glass Hehehe.. I had to laugh for a secondHad to check myself, get my mackin back in perspective I slack for a second but I'm back, no questionLike I walk with a cane, ain't no half-steppin!... Jeah, and on that note- (Fuck All Nite)

Sisters get respect, bitches get what they deserve
Sisters work hard, bitches work your nerves
Sisters hold you down, bitches hold you up
Sisters help you progress, bitches will slow you up
Sisters cook up a meal, play their role with the kids
Bitches in street with their nose in your biz
Sisters tell the truth, bitches tell lies
Sisters drive cars, bitches wanna ride
Sisters give-up the ass, bitches give-up the ass
Sisters do it slow, bitches do it fast
Sisters do their dirt outside of where they live
Bitches have niggas all up in your crib
Sisters tell you quick "you better check your homie"
Bitches don't give a fuck, they wanna check for your homie
Sisters love Jay cuz they know how 'Hov is I love my sisters, I don't love no bitch (Bitches & Sisters)