You given me opportunity to leave....over and over again...
You have fucked me up mentally
I've allowed this so called relationship to last for years. I've gotten used to the name calling, the arguments, the good times and bad.
Gotten used to it to the point where I looked forward to it....
it kept me coming to see you over and over again....if we didn't have anything we had that much goin on and that was ok with me...
Becoming immune to the disrespect...
I don't know what its like to be loved now, to feel appreciated, to be whined and dined, to be looked out for, i don't know what it feels like to have someone love me unconditionally....and if that special someone comes my way I wouldn't even know what to do with him. Wouldn't know where to start...
always been told I'm not tall enough
not small enough, my hair not long enough
my cooking not good enough, my cleaning my green enough....
been call everything but the child of god..but still i go back
I pray every time I see you it will be different. This will be the weekend we fall in love all over again....this will be the moment where we make future plans and be committed. But the longer I stay the worst it gets...
I've given you too much power. Too much control over me and this so called relationship.
I've let you do whatever you want with me and still have your cake and eat it too
I spoiled you like a child...
I kept your belly full,
clothed you,
bathed you as if you were one of my own.
I was your chef,
your friend,
your nail technician,
your ikea lol,
your freak,
your lie,
your truth,
your 2nd best,
your custodian..i mean ive played all the roles just for you....
I think this all stops today. Us....me and you..you and me it stops today......
When the heart cant take any more some women will stay.....but this woman is leaving. Deuces!
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